2011: A Memory Kaleidoscope - Part II

This is the second part of 2011: A Memory Kaleidoscope - Part I. Read the first part here.

For everything there is a season, 

and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die;

a time to weep, and a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 

August was the tipping point. 

As I have mentioned before, my boss, (the boss, that boss I've been talking about) died. My heart was broken. I grieved so much that I couldn't breathe. Who helped me back on my feet? My Father. Ps. Eve was there, pulling me back from the lump of grief to the Light. From that moment, I moved on. To the second semester of 2011. 

September was another new beginning. I finally got to reach my dream. Well, not quite but close. I am a proud (intern) copywriter. In a big company, meeting cool people, learning much more than attending class at school. This, is a new season. 

Ngomongin skripsi di semester satu empat tahun lalu rasanya kayak baru kemaren. Sekarang gue lagi ngerjain. Temen-temen udah pada lulus. Gak papa. Gue lulus sembilan bulan lagi. Everything's under control. Skripsi is going to be all lancar. Gue akan lulus dengan gemilang. Why am I so sure about it? Because I'm so sure about it.

October was the month I chose to forgive my mother forever. (At this point, Ps. Eve helped me went through it, too. I have never found somebody as caring as she is.) No, of course I don't forget what she did, but forgiving is a constant move. You don't mend a broken heart in a snap. You choose to forgive everyday. That's what I do. Then, this wound has turned into gratefulness. It grows in the heart because of forgiveness.

One more thing, for the first time ever in my life, I had my mother's suicide letter in my hand. I cried when I read it, but I know I should never take hold of the past. Not anymore. So I let it go, and burned the letter. I have no track of it anymore and ready for a happy future. :D

Now, November was a tough one. Well, not quite. Gue sibuk ngerjain bab 1-bab 3. Dengan kencang dan noraknya gue ngomong, "Oh, gini toh rasanya sibuk nyekripsi." Dan inilah kerjaan gue tiap hari menjelang deadline:

1. Ngemeng kata-kata tsakep namun jelas.
2. Nyari bahan referensi.
3. Baca jurnal skripsi orang.
4. Nge-tweet.
5. Baca buku.
6. Baca buku komunikasi.
7. Baca alkitab buat pencerahan.
8. Nge-tweet.
9. Nge-Farm Frenzy.
10. Ngemil.
11. Nge-shuffle. 
12. Ngemeng kata-kata tsakep lagi.
13. Nge-print.
14. Nge-tweet.
15. Nge-tweet.
16. Nge-tweet.
17. Nge-tweet.
18. Tidur.
19. Nge-tweet.
20. Motokopi skripsi.
21. Ngampus ngumpulin proposal skripsi.

Begitulah. And to start the year 2012, gue akan sidang proposal pada tanggal 11 Januari 2011 2012! Ooooo~ Yeah~

Aaaaand... let's wrap it up. December was the most most most special month of all. It's my birthday, and CHRISTMAS DAY! I need not to tell you again how special my birthday was--with all my friends celebrating it and the Citra Pariwara thingy. And don't forget the christmas gift I got from Monaco (BUKU THE HELP--yang sedikit keriting karena ketumpahan aer), the cute cardigan (yang sekarang kancingnya lepas gara-gara gue betot kekencengan) from Ci Lilis, and one best Christmas gift ever from Ps. Erlyn.

Let me tell you what.

Since Jesus' birth, I've been dreaming of taking a vocal lesson. I never had one. It's always my dad who teaches me how to sing. And we never do it anymore. I need a place to sing, I need to learn how to exploit this talent, I simply need to sing. 

I asked my dad, "Pa, aku cari tempat les vokal ya, nanti papa yang bayarin ya." 

Dad, "Iya... Cari aja, entar papa bayarin."

Pas dicari, "Pa, di gereja ada les vokal tapi agak mahal."

Dan... enggak jadi. Begitulah. Tapi...

On one crowded Christmas Eve, 

"Viona, kamu belajar (nyanyi) sama Irene (guru vokal di Seven Strings Music School) ya!" 

I stared at Ps. Erlyn.

"I'll pay for you." (She smiles)

The staring continued, now with sparkling eyes.

"That's the best Christmas gift ever, Ps!" I shouted spontaneously.

Aaaaah... It's one thrilling year, isn't it? Lessons and memories and love and friendship and everything I couldn't stop being grateful for... What can I say besides thank you? What can I do besides giving my best? 

You know what? The second semester of 2011 is the new beginning of a dream-come-true upcoming year! So... emmmm, gue curi start boleh ya?

HAPPY NEW DREAM-COME-TRUE YEAR 2012, EVERYBODY! 

(And, no. 2012 belom kiamat. percaya sama gue)

ps: 

For the great people, the super creative mentor, the ultra caring friends, those who help me grow, for your understanding, love, patience, acceptance, and ultimate silliness, I can never thank you enough for this thrilling year. Thinking about all this, I get an understanding that I'm created to help you glow, just like what you've done in me. I LOVE YOU.